The four rollaways pictured below contain 70 lbs worth of wardrobe. My goal is to go through them one by one: the top, which holds the “almost fits” clothes; then the next size down, and the next, until I get to that bottom rollaway. That rollaway is the fullest, holding my wardrobe from 2013-2014, the years I was at a healthy weight, 70 lbs less than I currently weigh.
Everything I owned before then – except for a few pieces kept for nostalgia – was donated before I started gaining weight back. Optimism, perhaps, or just the fact that I’d been in control of my body for so long and expected to remain so. The increase up to my current size was so rapid that honestly, my piles of clothing at each size up consist of whatever cheap I happened to find. I don’t really look forward to most of what’s in those rollaways, until I get to the bottom. Really, I just look forward to getting to each of them, then through each of them, until I’m back to the clothes I truly love.