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Wellness Wednesday #32: Discipline
My original health and fitness journey began in earnest in 2011. I had drive and determination and a plan. I made specific goals in short term (daily/weekly) and long term and longer term. I studied and evaluated and generally threw myself into this health and fitness thing wholeheartedly, without allowing myself to go overboard and burn out. It worked well. From January to the end of September, I lost 45 lbs, could jog for an hour straight, had built tons of muscle through strength training, had much better nutrition/food habits, and felt good about my body and where I was going for the first time in forever.
The thing is, I never relied on motivation. Life had long taught me that motivation was a fleeting thing that burned out after a few weeks max. Instead, I relied on determination. I was not going to stop no matter what. I treated health and fitness as a full time job. When you don’t feel like showing up to your job, you do it anyway, because you can’t afford to get fired. You take days off for illness, but not for “I don’t wanna go to work today.”
Determination worked well for me. When severe insomnia hit me in October 2011 and slowed my weight loss to a crawl, I kept going. When it took another 18 months to lose the last 40 lbs, I kept going. When I had a stress fracture in my leg and wasn’t allowed to exercise for three months, I kept going. No matter what, I kept going. That, I thought, was determination, and it paid off. Eventually I hit my goal weight, and then maintained that weight for another 18 months. That’s when things began to slip.
Because here’s the thing: It wasn’t determination that was driving me. Determination had started me going, but in the end, it was discipline that kept me driving forward. Last week I read an article about discipline from Nia Shanks, and something clicked. When life fell down around my shoulders in 2013, I’d kept going, kept maintaining my weight, kept training, kept eating well. A year later, when life crashed even worse, I didn’t keep going. I started gaining weight, stopped training, started eating erratically. I tried to get myself back in line, but with my life in pieces, there was no determination to be found. Every ounce of energy I had went toward surviving. I had nothing to spare for anything else.
This is what clicked last week. The difference between that first life-crash and the second wasn’t just the severity. The second collapse came during a crucial change in my life: when we sold our house and moved across the country. All of a sudden, I was in a new house, a new situation, a new part of the country with drastically different weather patterns, a new schedule for the kids’ schools, a new schedule for Jason’s job, and so on. My former routines meant nothing any longer. Everything had to be changed. I had to build something new from scratch, and I didn’t have the energy to do that. By the time I got a tiny bit of energy back, we moved across the country again. Rinse. Repeat.
I’m starting all over again from scratch, three cross-country moves later. Not just losing regained weight and getting my fitness levels back to where they were, but building up the routines and schedules and discipline that were once second nature to me. I’ll be honest: I’m not even trying right now while I live in my in-laws’ house. Sure, I’m trying to eat as healthy as I can and I’m trying to head down to the community center gym when I can, but I’m not trying to build a routine or regimen. I’m saving that for when we move into our new house. (Four more days!!) I’ve already started sketching out potential plans and schedules for myself. I’m itching to really get started again. Hopefully, that’s a good sign. I need motivation or determination or whatever to get me going long enough to build a practice that will morph into long term discipline again. Maybe DISCIPLINE will be my word for 2017.
The Masquerading Magician, by Gigi Pandian (audio)
Since this is the second book in a series, I’m going to refrain from discussing the plot and simply refer back to the first book, The Accidental Alchemist, for anyone who is interested in storyline. In fact, I’m going to keep this as a mini-review altogether. My thoughts in brief:
There was a lot less to this story than in the first book. Less mystery, less storyline, less food-talk (a good thing in this case), less humor, less atmosphere, less closure. Additionally, there were a few new things. There were third-person flashbacks that are not all entirely explained yet, and an unresolved end that makes me anxious to get to the next book (January!). None of this is to say I didn’t like the book. I did. It fell a little flat after the first novel, as second books so often do, but was still good. Thankfully, it didn’t fall prey to being a repeat of the first book in any way, and I’m grateful for that. I definitely plan to keep reading on when further volumes are published.
Posted in 2016, Adult, Prose
Tagged audio, food, mini-review, RIP-worthy, speculative
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Sunday Coffee – One Week!
!!! Guys! I have news! Originally I thought for Sunday Coffee this week that I’d write about the upcoming Readathon and how I’ve been waffling whether or not to participate. I no longer have the choice now. I won’t be participating. I’ll be moving that day instead!
Yesterday, we met with the sellers of this new house we’re getting and a realtor to sign paperwork. We knew they were going to let us move in a few weeks before closing, but I figured that would be end of October or early November. Instead, we can move in next Saturday!! I’m foregoing the Readathon – which would have been difficult while not in my own house anyway – for hauling boxes from storage shed to house. I’ll relax with some books after a few weeks of unpacking, heh.
I’m so excited. I love my in-laws but I really can’t wait to get back in my own place, my own space, again!! It’s only been about two months, but it feels like a lot longer since my previous house was under construction since early May. I haven’t had a home in six months. And I’m really, really looking forward to having a home again.
Winter Wear: Glove Edition
I’ve moved to northern Wisconsin, and I have way too much yarn. It only makes sense that I create tons and tons of winter accessories to wear! Today’s post features gloves and socks that I’ve crocheted over the last few months.
I’m a huge fan of fingerless gloves, and One Skein Wonders (my go-to book for patterns right now) has five different patterns for them! These are the first I made, actually for a friend of mine whose birthday was back in August. I tried them on to make sure they fit a hand properly – it was my first real experience with sewing to join, rather than joining with a crochet stitch – and I loved them so much that I made myself an identical pair later on! [Yarn: Premier Yarns Deborah Norville Serenity Sock Weight in Burgundy]
Next up was some thick fingerless gloves, or a pattern known as “wristlets” in One Skein Wonders (ha!). I made them longer than the pattern called for, and played around with mismatching buttons for the fakey cuffs. Loved the way they came out, especially as they match my newest coffee mug, heh. Plus the yarn is the same used in my quinby hat so I have coordinating accessories! These are extremely warm and will be perfect for this winter! [Yarn: Lion’s Pride Woolspun in Claret and Linen]
Fingerless gloves #3 (also from OSW) feature a shell pattern and a buttoned cuff. Honestly, I think this pattern was misprinted. It features size 1 yarn with a 3.25-mm hook (normal) and says that the pattern will require 198 yards of yarn. The gauge indicates a much larger size per stitch than it’s possible to achieve with this hook and yarn size (like three times too large!). When I tried to make these with that size of hook, these gloves might have fit a toddler. Maybe. Even moving up to a 3.75-mm hook and stitching loosely, the glove is about preteen-sized and very stretched at that (picture in book has very tight stitches). My very tiny son is modeling them here. I can get them on, but the cuff-button is about an inch too wide to actually fasten, and I don’t exactly have giant wrists. Plus, even with the larger hook size and loosely stitching, I used up maybe 100 yards of yarn, max. It’s a neat pattern, but I think I’ll try it again with a size 3 yarn and a larger hook so that I can make a pair to fit an adult hand! [Yarn: Patons Kroy Socks in Sing’n the Blues Stripes]
Technically, socks aren’t gloves, but they’re kinda like foot-gloves, and they’re the only foot-wear I made over the last few months, so I’m sticking them in this post! These are yoga socks, pattern from Expression Fiber Arts, modified as usual to fit. The original pattern is supposed to fit women’s shoe size 3 to 9, and I’m size 8, but this pattern was way too small for my feet. I left the number of foot-rows the same, because I don’t like the socks to go all the way to the toes like the pattern shows, and then I had to add another set of shells to the ankle/cuff section to get them to fit properly. Fun pattern, but definitely needs tweaking if you have average-sized feet. [Yarn: Patons Kroy Socks in Sing’n the Blues Stripes]
These arm warmers/fingerless gloves come from Crochet That Fits. The book is subtitled Shaped Fashions Without Increases or Decreases – and that’s essentially both what I liked and didn’t like about this particular pattern. On the one hand, the book encourages changing the pattern to fit you. I made these shorter (instead of going all the way to my elbows, which I don’t particularly like) and wider (because I like a looser fit on my arm). Because there are no increases or decreases, though, there’s a LOT of extra space around my wrist, so they’re quite floppy in one section, while snug around my forearm and the widest part of my hand. Increasing and decreasing isn’t that difficult, so I would have preferred to just do that! However, they’re cozy and I like fingerless gloves, so I’ll still keep them around for this winter! [Yarn: Caron Simply Soft Camo in Woodland]
After making some Key Tab Fingerless Gloves (Calleigh’s Clips & Crochet Creations) for my sister-in-law last month, I knew I needed a pair for myself. I got one of my favorite yarns – the picture doesn’t do the colors justice – and modified the pattern a bit to lengthen the gloves down my arms. They’re so soft and cuddly that I’ve been wearing them whenever I get the slightest bit chilled! [Yarn: Caron Simply Soft Paints in Peacock Feather]
Last up: Is it obvious by now just how much I love fingerless gloves? This is pattern #4 from One Skein Wonders, called “Astra” gloves (whatever that means?). By now, however, I’ve discovered something very important about myself: I despise working with superfine (size 1) yarn. I thought perhaps I’d try something a little different with this one, using two strands of superfine yarn together with the same sized hook the pattern called for. I’d feel out the pattern size (it had instructions for child, average woman, and average man hand size) and see what I thought. I preferred the double strand a thousand times over! Because of the double-size of the yarn, I ended up using the instructions for the child-sized gloves, but that worked out perfectly fine for me. Snug, soft, exactly the right size, and I like the mottle of two colors together as well! These have become my default going-to-sleep gloves on super-cold nights, they’re that soft! [Yarn: Loops & Threads Woolike in Purple and Navy]
So that’s it for gloves! I’m sure I’ll make a few more variations of a few of these in different colors, and I might eventually try the complicated fifth fingerless glove pattern in One Skein Wonders (with individual fingers!). For now, though, this’ll be a great autumn/winter stockpile!
No One Knows, by JT Ellison (audio)
Aubrey’s husband disappeared five years ago. She was eventually exonerated after she was accused of murdering him, and her life has been a wreck ever since. On the day her husband is declared dead, a mysterious stranger shows up, and old wounds start to open, old secrets start to come out.
About the book: I loved this book all the way up until the last chapter or two. I listened to it nonstop, the audio equivalent of unputdownable. The psychology was fascinating. I loved the peeling off of layers, the slow unraveling of the past. Then came the end and the final twist, and suddenly, I was done. Once more, a thriller had gone one step too far, and for me, the story was sacrificed for the sake of shock. And frankly, after reading enough thrillers that do this exact same thing, throw a random twist at the end to change up everything you know, the twist wasn’t even shocking. It was just disappointing. The book was much, much better without it.
About thrillers in general: Then again, maybe this just comes down to thrillers not being my genre. I enjoy some thrillers and crime novels. Tana French and Robert Galbraith immediately spring to mind, and there have been others through the years. Too often, though, I go into something that sounds really promising and am disappointed by a final twist that turns a book from great into meh. The problem for me is that I never know which will be a great book and which will pull a last-minute twist. I don’t want to miss the good ones, but I’m too often disappointed by the expected. Ironic, given that twists are supposed to be the unexpected. Sigh.
Anyway, I’m sure that in the bigger picture, thriller-lovers will love this one. It’s expertly crafted. For me, though: complete disappointment, even bigger after being so enthralled by the first 98% of the book.
Wellness Wednesday #31: The World is Spinning All Too Quickly
The last few months have taken their toll. In the last five months, my (close extended) family has had over $25k of house repairs, a sudden cross-country move, multiple trips across the country, a wedding, an engagement, a new baby, a cancer diagnosis, and a serious crime that will head to court soon. In addition to all the stress and the difficulty of living in someone else’s house for the time being, I’ve dealt with three medicine changes in just since May, one of which caused a 10-lb weight gain in two weeks (whoops! They changed that one right away!), and one of which caused six weeks of major hellish side-effects when I got off it. I currently have no doctor, therapist, chiropractor, or friends in the area outside of family members. My oldest son turns 16 next week, the weather is turning cold out there, and my brain is still stuck in May when we first uncovered the house-issues that snowballed into most-of-the-above.
I chose Healing to be my one-word of 2016, and that isn’t going too well. I’m not healing in any way, mental or physical. It’s been nearly 14 months since I injured my ankle, and despite three rounds of physical therapy, it’s still giving me trouble. Thanks to medication shuffling, I’m up 12 lbs from where I started the year despite my best efforts to lose. My family is financially smashed and it will take a couple years for us to recover. I’m dubious about the psychological and physical health care I’ll have access to in this tiny rural part of Wisconsin, simply because there’s a limited choice of doctors available. And biggest of all, everything is pretty much on hold until we can move into our own place again. (Hopefully soon. We know where we’re moving now. Just have to do all the paperwork, loans, etc.)
It’s a bizarre situation when you feel like your life is both 1) frozen in place and you can’t wait to get started again, and 2) so rushed and packed full of Things that you can’t keep up with it. I’m so tired. In the last 2.5 years, I’ve moved across the country three times, nearly lost my marriage, regained 70 lbs, gone through hell in therapy to dig into my PTSD, spent hours upon hours fretting and worrying and trying to help my son-with-behavioral-issues, battled severe insomnia, developed an eating disorder, overcame binge drinking, and been on more medications than I can count. I keep wondering when the crap-pile dumping on me will run out of ammo. I want to be able to breathe again.
I need six months of absolute quiet, of 12-hour nights of uninterrupted sleep, of lots of hot bubble baths. I need to get my head above water. The cycle is vicious. I won’t feel/sleep better until I can move my body and eat decent food, but I can’t do that until I feel/sleep better. So I keep spiraling worse, and worse, and worse. And days when I don’t sleep – those are coming ever more frequently – compound the situation.
That’s why I’ve disappeared from Wellness Wednesday and personal talk for the last little while. It’s easier and safer to talk books and crochet. I haven’t really been able to talk about the guts of what’s happening. I’ve really missed having an outlet, though. I’ve been locked up inside my head too long. So here you go. One day – hopefully soon – I’ll be in a place (mentally and physically) to claw my way back to wellness again. In the meantime, I could use all the virtual hugs and positive thoughts y’all can send my way.
The Trespasser, by Tana French (audio)
Antoinette Conway is nearly done with the Dublin Murder Squad. The harassment has gotten to the breaking point, and Conway can hardly tell who is and isn’t out to get her anymore. The case that’s handed down to her and her partner, Stephen Moran, feels like the last straw. Aislinn Murray has been murdered, and other detectives want this wrapped up quick and easy with a nice little bow. Conway doesn’t think it’s so simple, though, and her paranoia comes up with all sorts of reasons everyone else is pushing her to shut down this case too fast.
One again, Tana French doesn’t disappoint! This book is brilliant, split between the chaotic psychology of Conway’s paranoia and the murky secret life led by the murder victim. Nothing is black and white, and the narrator isn’t exactly a likable person. Being inside her head, you come to question not just the case and the people around her, but the narrator herself. I can’t say more than that without revealing spoilers, but man this book was great. I’m already itching for the next in the series, and trying to guess who will be the detective to narrate it!
Performance: Hilda Fay reads this book. I’ve never listened to an audio production from her before and I’m happy to say that it was delightful!
Sunday Coffee – Audible
More than once since I began listening to audiobooks in 2010, I’ve questioned whether or not to join Audible. I’m super picky about audiobooks and narrators, and I tend to only buy books after I’ve tried them from the library first. There were some audiobooks that I really wanted to own, but not enough to justify the expense and risk of Audible. I heard rumors that you could return books if you didn’t like them, and that piqued my interest. I wasn’t sure, though. Wasn’t sure if the price and risks were worth it.
Then Jason bought me a year’s membership for my birthday this past March. For the last seven months, I’ve explored, and I’m finally ready to make a report on my Audible experience. To sum it up in one word: glorious.
First, I was surprised at just how easy everything was to use. My credits just sat there waiting for me. I could buy audiobooks or use credits. (I discovered too late that I should only use my credits for books that cost more than a credit. My first two grabs were classics that only cost about $5 apiece. Whoops!) Once I purchased a book, I could download immediately. I can delete from my phone afterwards to save space, without deleting the books altogether, and re-download whenever I wish
Second, I fell in love with the specials and daily deals. There are some audiobooks that I enjoyed in the past but never would have spent a credit on if they hadn’t popped up for $3.95 one day. I’ve been glad to snatch up every single one. Then there are the periodic sales where tons and tons go up for under $5? !!! Right before we moved to Wisconsin, I bought 10 audiobooks for under $30. Some were ones I knew, some were roll-the-dice books, which leads me to:
Third, Audible does book-returns right! It is sooooo easy. There are two books now that I’ve started listening to and either didn’t like the story or didn’t like the narrator. Nervous that I’d be stuck with them because I’d gotten them for something like $2 on a special, I went online to try the return service. A couple of clicks and Audible swapped me book for money. Nothing could be simpler. I was super impressed.
Last, I’ve discovered pre-orders. There were several books coming out this fall that I wanted to have an audio. They are series that I prefer on audio, so even though I never pre-order anything, I pre-ordered them. A credit went to them, and I got a notification the day they came out that I could download. Perfect!
I’ve yet to run out of credits since I got a year’s in advance and I’ve learned to pay for sale-books with money. I only have a couple left, though, and so soon I’ll discover how buying credits works (because I’ve heard you can do this if you don’t have any left and it’s still a bit before your next monthly comes out?). I’m definitely going to keep my membership going once the initial year runs out. Totally 100% worth it, and I kinda wish I’d signed up years ago!