Scattered Hellos

Hello lovely people! I’ve had tons and tons going on over the last few weeks, and while I’ve talked in brief about some things (boys out of school, new haircut, stupid termite issues), I thought I’d do a bullet list of a few happy things going on in my world right now!

05 Nat and me• I recently visited my great friend Natalie in Houston over Memorial Day weekend. Nat and I have known each other since high school, but we’ve never lived in the same area at the same time, so our visits are widely spaced and somewhat erratic. We haven’t seen each other since July or so when I first moved back, so it was great to hang out with her for a few days. I can’t remember the last time we had three whole days together! We visited a bunch of places I knew when I was in college in Houston, and she bought me this absolutely amazing tarot deck at Magick Cauldron. It’s an Italian deck by Nicoletta Ceccoli, and the artwork is phenomenal. Observe:

05 new tarot

06 tarot bag• Speaking of this particular tarot deck, I crocheted a little bag for it after not picking up my crochet hooks for months. I was struggling with my right shoulder because I was crocheting too much (ha!) so I needed a break. The bag isn’t perfect, but came out nicely! (Though I admit, this was my third attempt after two major fails…I had no pattern to follow!)

• Summer is in full-swing in San Antonio, in the 90s most days now, and I discovered a sad thing: I simply cannot wear leggings under my skirts in this heat, which basically means I cannot wear skirts. Then I discovered Bandelettes, which have changed my whole world. These are amazing. They don’t slip, they don’t make me sweat, and they’re perfect protection against chafing. I’ve been wearing a lot more skirts since I grabbed these! Here’s an outfit from pre-haircut days (necklace also courtesy of Magick Cauldron).

06 ootd

beach• Between the increased wardrobe and the lovely haircut, I’m feeling so much more confident about myself these days. Confident enough that I brought my bikini to the beach this week. It was a large family vacation including my dad, most of my siblings, and my nephew (12 of us total). We rented a house near the beach in Port Aransas for three nights. I’m not a huge ocean person – too unpredictable – but there was also a pool and I figured I could at least walk along the shore and such. Um…no. We went out for a walk the first night, and by the time I got home, I had over 30 huge mosquito bites. Everyone else went out constantly, but for the rest of vacation, I stayed inside and read!!! So I didn’t end up wearing that bikini, but hey, I brought it, and I didn’t stay inside because I was body-conscious!! And the boys all seemed to enjoy themselves, which made it all worth it.

What are all of you up to these days?

PS – Let me know if you had any fun blogs come up this week, as I had to do the dreaded mark-all-as-read after a week away from home!

Posted in Crochet, Personal | Tagged , , , , | 9 Comments

The Sleeping Prince, by Melinda Salisbury (audio)

sleeping princeIn this follow-up to The Sin Eater’s Daughter, a fairy tale has come to life. The Sleeping Prince is awake, and is taking multiple kingdoms for his throne after five hundred years asleep. He’s brutal, and the world is in chaos. Errin is struggling to survive as the battle approaches. Her father is dead, her brother has disappeared, and her mother seems to have turned into another beast from the fairy tales. The only person she can trust is a man whose face she has never seen, and even then, she counts on betrayal.

You never know with second books how well they’ll come out in comparison to the first in a series. The Sleeping Prince happily goes the way of being just as brilliant. The story is told through a different narrator’s eyes, though characters from the last book do show up now and then, more or less. (Can’t say more without spoilers.) There is more about the world, history, and magic of this series, and a great setup for the next book. There were surprises that I predicted ahead of time, and surprises that I never saw coming. Let me just say that the ambiguous ending from the first book gets cleared up quite nicely!

My favorite thing about the series so far, I think, is the multitude of grey characters. There are some characters that I still can’t tell their alliances. Great construction of intrigue and neutrality. I’m already coming up with theories for the people and plot to come!

Performance: Once again, Amy Shiels does an absolutely fantastic job with the narration!

Posted in 2016, Prose, Young Adult | Tagged , , , , , | 4 Comments

Something New, by Lucy Knisley

something newSubtitled: Tales From a Makeshift Bride

As evidenced by the title and cover of this graphic novel, Lucy Knisley takes us through the year of her wedding planning and eventual ceremony. And just as with other Knisley books, I was delighted and enthralled through the whole process. I honestly don’t have much to say here. There was so much good – casual discussion of identity and sexuality, historical and cultural significance of various wedding rituals and superstitions, the emotional overkill of events of this size, excellent DIY tips that I know I’d never pull off myself… Everything in here was just so Knisley, which of course it was, but even so, it makes me happy. These honest little forays into one person’s life make me feel more strongly connected to the world, whether or not I’ve shared the same experiences (my wedding, for instance, was at the courthouse and had exactly five people invited to attend). If you haven’t tried Knisley yet, please do. Go all the way back to French Milk and enjoy!

Posted in 2016, Adult, Visual | Tagged , , , | 4 Comments

Summer Reading Project

books

(My poor books currently live on my bedroom floor since my living room is torn apart…)

It’s that time of year. The boys just finished with school, and all the days of swimming, vacations, camps, and heat have begun. For me, summer = projects. I need projects in order to stay sane while my stay-at-home-mom job and my summer seasonal depression kick in 24/7. This summer, I’ll be working on my nutrition, hopefully on my writing, and I want to add a reading project to that list.

My TBR and to-investigate piles have grown ridiculously huge again. I’m to that point where it’s time to either read or cull my way through titles, to get them all back to a manageable level. So the goal this summer is to do just that: get all the way through this list of books before the boys go back to school on August 22nd.

The books!
There are two piles here – one physical, one virtual. Let’s start with the virtual possibilities, including any that will release before 8/22/16:

  • Spark Joy by Marie Kondo
  • The Hunt by Megan Shepherd
  • The Shadow Hour by Melissa Grey
  • Love & Gelato by Jenna Evans Welch
  • Harry Potter & the Cursed Child by JK Rowling
  • The Widow by Fiona Barton
  • Finding Fraser by KC Dyer
  • If I Was Your Girl by Meredith Russo
  • The Woman in Cabin 10 by Ruth Ware
  • Roses and Rot by Kat Howard
  • Untethered by Julie Lawson Timmer
  • The Sleeping Prince by Melinda Salisbury (currently in progress)
  • Being Sloane Jacobs by Lauren Morrill

That makes 13 virtual priorities this summer. Eek! Already this makes me feel out of control, and that doesn’t even count the physical books, of which there are 12:

  • A Golden Age by Tahmima Anam
  • Light in August by William Faulkner
  • Kingdom of Strangers by Zoe Ferraris
  • Five Quarters of the Orange by Joanne Harris
  • North of Beautiful by Justina Chen Headley
  • Broken for You by Stephanie Kallos
  • The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
  • Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell
  • The Scarlet Pimpernel by Emma Orczy
  • The Septembers of Shiraz by Dalia Sofer
  • The Sky Son by Byambaa Bayarmagnai
  • Laughing Without an Accent by Firoozeh Dumas

That makes a total of 25 books to read or cull in the next 2.5 months. Not including anything that might come up in the meantime to distract me. I totally need you all to wish me tons of luck!!

Posted in Book Talk | Tagged | 1 Comment

Sunday Coffee – Brain Candy

IMG_5004Let me be honest: This was not a good month for me. This wasn’t really because Stuff Happened (though of course there was stuff…kidney stone, ankle problems, sweltering heat and humidity, a shooting near my son’s high school, the discovery of a major termite infestation that wasn’t disclosed when we bought our  house…etc). It was more an issue of triggers. The heat around this time of year always induces a bit of depression, but the last two Mays have been extremely rough for me emotionally, and so I spent most of this month in a kind of fug, protecting my vulnerable innards from attack. It was something I was aware of, but not something I had any control over. Instead of fighting for control, which would have only disordered me even worse, I simply let the fug take over. I dove into books as my only escape, and I only wanted the lightest, fluffiest, sweetest candy to devour.

I read 15 books in May, which is about three times my normal (outside Readathon months). Nearly all of those 15, excepting rereads, consisted of books I don’t normally read and books I likely won’t remember much about. I’m not saying anything bad about these books, because hell, that’s exactly what I needed in May. I was super thankful that I had them when I needed them.

Toward the end of the month, though, I grew tired of brain-candy. I know I wasn’t quite ready for deeper-thinking books, because the one time I tried, I ended up not enjoying the book as much as I probably would have in other circumstances. Still, I no longer wanted race-to-the-end, book-after-book-after-book kinds of reads. I wanted to slow down and savor words again, and now I move into June with different priorities and a desire to strive for better balance again. Books, writing, health, family, friends. Not just books. Wish me luck!

*****
In better news, here’s a few happenings from the last few days. 1 – The boys finished school. They are now in 7th, 9th, and 10th grades. I have two high-schoolers:

2016 school

2 – My hair was driving me crazy, so I decided to go drastic and do something I’d wanted to do for a long time:

hair

And I think I love this haircut more than any I’ve ever had in my life. Love love LOVE.

Posted in Book Talk, Personal | Tagged , | 5 Comments

The Sin Eater’s Daughter, by Melinda Salisbury (audio)

sin eaterTwylla is deadly. As the embodied daughter of the gods, her skin is poisonous to anyone she touches, save the royal family, who are protected by the gods. Though Twylla hates her role and fate, she accepts it, until a new guard treats her like a person instead of divinity, and she begins to learn more about her real role in the kingdom’s politics.

That’s a terrible summary for an absolutely brilliant book. I am so happy that I heard about this book from Sync YA this summer! I enjoyed everything from the world-building and theology to the story line and audio narration. Actually, this is one of those books I loved so much that I’m having a hard time reviewing it. It most definitely makes my top books of the year. I’ll see if I can list out some of the reasons why:

– Rarely do YA fantasy novels do a lot of world-building, including history of the country, mythology, religion, geography, etc, not to mention those things for the surrounding countries as well. I really appreciated the detail and depth this book went into. It felt far more adult than YA, on that cusp of older teen.

– Some of the concepts, like sin-eating, were so unique and fascinating! There’s also a fascinating balance between real and pretend magic in this world, making the waters very murky.

– Twylla is a different narrator than usual. She’s quiet, obedient, and naive. All her life, she’s lived in a world steeped in mythology. While others in the kingdom can see gods and magic with clearer eyes, Twylla spends the first half of her life with her sin-eating mother, learning symbolic characteristics of food at death-feasts. When she leaves home and becomes instead Daunen Embodied (not a spoiler – happens before the book starts), she believes it with everything in her. Even as she grows to hate her role and the life she lives, she believes it. Her faith is very strong, if misplaced.

– I love how complicated love and affection are here. At first I thought there was a love-triangle setup, but it was nothing like that. There’s Twylla’s betrothed, and then there’s her only friend. She knows nothing of love, and is starved for touch, unable to touch without killing. People treat her with fear and disgust, and her betrothed rarely speaks to her. So everything gets mixed up, and love means something far different than it might for someone who has undergone less abuse and/or has more experience.

– While this book is a trilogy, this story seems to be mostly closed up. In fact, the next book is narrated by a different character altogether, one who is mentioned but not seen in The Sin Eater’s Daughter. I don’t know if Twylla will return to the story, or what will happen in Book 3. I don’t know if Twylla’s somewhat ambiguous (in a good way!) end will ever give us more detail. And I really appreciate just how different this series will be as the narration shifts elsewhere!

– The audio performance is just spectacular! Amy Shiels narrates, and her voice is perfect for this book, just slightly different from what I’m used to, carrying a broad range of not-our-world accents. Actually, just to tell you how much I loved the audio, my Sync YA files came slightly corrupted, so I ordered the print book from my library instead. After it arrived, I decided I really, really wanted the audio version, so I used one of my Audible credits to get it. Now I can listen over and over if I wish!

And I will listen over and over, I can already tell. I can’t wait to read The Sleeping Prince, and I hope that the third book will release next year. The Sin Eater’s Daughter is Salisbury’s first novel, and I’m definitely already a fan.

Posted in 2016, Prose, Young Adult | Tagged , , , , , , , | 5 Comments

Wellness Wednesday #30: Awake

buttonJune 1st, 1999. I’d spent a hard semester at college while my relationship with a former long-time boyfriend dissolved, and I’d decided to go to France on a six-week abroad program that summer. I’d been in France roughly a week by the start of June, and already I was in love. In love with the country, in love with my fairy-tale room on the third floor of my host-house, in love with the cobblestone roads and cafes and cathedrals and classes.

bedroom 1

1999June 1st, 1999. I sat on the floor of my bedroom, listening to music and doing my French homework for the day. I’d been struggling so hard with depression, but in that moment, something lifted from my shoulders. For the first time in years, I felt awake. Alive. I started smiling. Grinning. Laughing to myself. I could breathe again.

I cannot say exactly why this one moment affected my life so profoundly. Maybe it was simply a combination of being away from the troubles at home plus lots of exercise (walking everywhere!) and healthier foods. Hormones and health can really make a huge difference in a person’s life. Maybe it was just a change in perspective. That one moment, however, allowed me to shuck off the chains I was carrying. The boyfriend who had been ill-using me, my fears of being alone, the ties to certain beliefs and traditions that no longer worked for me. In that moment, I crossed over into a new life.

That’s not to say everything has been peachy-wonderful since then. Of course not. All I know is that a dividing line was drawn, the most significant dividing line of my life, before or since. Every year, I celebrate. June 1st feels like a new year for me, a new beginning, a new chance to let go and live.

Posted in Personal | Tagged , | Leave a comment

Everything I Never Told You, by Celeste Ng

everything I neverLydia is dead. But they don’t know this yet. From this beginning, the story of a mixed-race family in the 70s unfolds, spinning outwards as the discovery of the favored child’s death affects everyone.

This will be a very difficult book for me to review. Let me start with this disclaimer: I did not personally enjoy this book, though at the same time, I think it is a good book. This is far outside my normal reads. I don’t usually enjoy historical fiction, straight literary fiction, or books where the narrator shifts on a whim from character to character. The book is good, but I am not the intended audience, and even a good book in a category I don’t really enjoy is not going to make for an enjoyable experience for me. So why keep reading? Two reasons.

First, I learned a lot from the book. There were some interesting historical stuff in here that I didn’t know. For example, I’d never heard of rabbit tests for pregnancy before, and I spent some time researching that. I do like learning these kinds of tidbits. There was also a lot about the cultural history of racism against Asian people in America. I’ve read some of this before, but not enough that I feel I know much. As this sort of racism continues to this day (I have a friend in a white/Asian mixed-race family whose children get some of these same comments even now), I feel like I ought to understand better.

Second, the book was far more interesting to study and ponder after reading than it was (for me) to actually read it. I’ve had similar experiences with other books before. For example, I couldn’t stand Madame Bovary, but I loved studying it through literary analysis and having an in-depth discussion of its themes/cultural relevance/influence/etc with my book club. Sometimes books are simply more interesting to study than to read, and I found that to be the case here. I disliked just about every character in the book, except Hannah, and yet each was so fascinating to pick apart and analyze after the fact.

Back when my first son was born, his baby book asked the question, “What are your dreams for your child?” My answer was that I refused to put any dreams on him, because I didn’t want to accidentally give him burdens instead. I’d had some experience already with what happened to children whose parents tried to force them to live out their own dreams, as Lydia’s do with her. I thought about this, and about how the family fractured because of Marilyn’s short abandonment, and about the causes for lost dreams in the first place, and about how roles for women are slowly changing, and how some parents despise the children who are most like them while other parents love those children the most. I thought about the ways that each member of the family carried a kind of traumatic memory behavior pattern, and how that pattern influenced the silence that created a false life around them. I was not exactly happy about the knowledge that through Marilyn’s choices, she constructed the downfall of so many people, when it feels like that blame ought to be spread out a bit more. I didn’t like her being the center of it all, in the end.

In other words, the book got me to think, and while it may not have been the most pleasurable read for me, I did enjoy the studying of it afterwards, and maybe that’s enough.

Posted in 2016, Adult, Prose | Tagged , , , | 4 Comments

Sunday Coffee – Something New

IMG_4787

It’s been about a month or so since I finished my last manuscript, Maldralith, and I think it’s time to settle on a new project for the summer. I have a few possibilities picked out. Three are a little more well-developed in my head than the others, though I have new ideas splashing out over me so often these days that I’ve been feeling the panic of “not enough time!” Once I make my choice, I can go ahead without reservations, but I need to pick one first, and that’s almost always the hardest part. So, informal poll time! Which of the following three do you think I should work on next?

Winter’s Son
When Poe Winterson’s mother hangs herself, Poe is sent to live with her grandmother in the childhood home she hardly remembers. Eight years of nomadic life have obliterated memories of before. She barely recognizes her former best friend, Blake Hansley, and doesn’t recall the dilapidated piano abandoned in the woods where they used to play. She has no idea that this piano acts as a gateway to another world, a world of Nightmares that have haunted her dreams for years. Suddenly, nothing about the fabric of Poe’s life can be trusted – not her upbringing, not her memories, not the details of her mother’s death. She wants to run, to disappear back into the real world and never step foot near that piano again. The Nightmares have taken Blake, however, and Poe refuses to let them destroy any more lives in their hunt for her.

Notes: YA fantasy, first in a four-part series based on the four seasons, and this would be my second draft of this novel

Gargoyle Island
Mallory Dane inherits a tropical island luxury home off the coast of Honduras, but when she arrives to claim it, she runs afoul of an immortal priest and a gargoyle-come-to-life. She quickly discovers their secret: once chained to the island, a resident can never escape. Never one to accept her chains quietly, Mallory sets about unraveling the numerological magic that has trapped her family line on Gargoyle Island for a century.

Notes: adult contemporary fantasy, standalone, and this would be my second draft of this novel

Goblin Market
Mizzy has been a refugee since her infant years. She lives in the goblin district of New York City, interacts mainly with other goblins, and has never considered breaking the US’s many statutes about magical creatures. One night, she’s goaded into a small act of rebellion, and with that act, Mizzy’s life is upended. Now she’s on the run from both the US government and black marketeers intent on stealing her magic. Her community of goblins won’t help her, and she finds herself surrounded by creatures of all sorts, refugee and native. Each were in hiding, and together, their collective knowledge might help them escape, or might reveal a truth none of them could have discovered alone.

Notes: fantasy (could be YA or adult at this point), probably standalone, and this would be a first draft.

So what do y’all think? Any of these catch your eye?

Posted in Writing | Tagged | 5 Comments

Happily Ever After (Part II)

I’ve been reading a couple of fairy-tale like series this month – princesses! – and instead of reviewing each book one by one, I’m going to do mini-reviews in a single set. No sense clogging up my blog with tons and tons of mini-reviews!

For Part II of these Happily Ever After minis, I’m reviewing the rest of the dystopian series that began with The Selection by Kiera Cass. While these aren’t the same as the romances in Part I – these are set in a world where Happily Ever After isn’t assured – I went into the series with a good idea of how the formula and plot-arc would unfold over the five books. Longer series like this are difficult to review without giving away spoilers from previous books, so I won’t be talking about plot at all, and instead will just give my reactions to each of the books as I went along.

Selection 1

The Elite
While I enjoyed The Selection, I was a little put off by how close it stuck to the plot/details of The Hunger Games. Thankfully, The Elite branched away into its own story. I still had some issues – America’s extreme naivety was particularly infuriating – but for the most part, I found this a step up from the first book. At one point I actually found my heart pounding along with the characters’ in a moment of extreme stress. That doesn’t happen to me often when I read, so points to the book and author for that!

The One
I’m in two minds about this book. On the one hand, I really enjoyed a big chunk of it and felt like the plot finally got going in stride. There were the beginnings of deeper characterization of the auxiliary characters, and a little more seen about the outside world. The ending, however, went through so much in such a short amount of time, though, that I feel very unsatisfied. There are some characters who deviated massively from their personalities, a lot of unanswered questions, more blindness and easily-solvable miscommunication, and some deus ex machina. I hadn’t realized that this book was the end of the initial series, and that the next happens further along in time. I’m hoping some questions will be answered/explored in further volumes, but I’m still left unsatisfied here.

heir crown

The Heir
Nope. None of my questions answered. This is basically the start of an entirely new series. It’s a good one, yes, but I still wish I had more from the end of the last book. Setting that aside, though, I enjoyed The Heir. I’m not a huge fan of the narrator, who seems very naive in many ways, but essentially this is what I was thinking would be interesting about the last book – seeing the Selection from the point of view of someone doing the selecting. I imagine Eadlyn’s experience is similar to Maxon’s in many ways, so it was almost like revisiting the books from a different point of view. The ending is very abrupt, though, and unfortunately I’m going to have to wait a bit before the next book, as the hold list is quite long at the library.

The Crown
I got very tired of waiting for the library list to thin, and eventually used an Audible credit to get this one. I enjoyed the story very much, despite feeling like it was very predictable in places and still lacking in some of the world-building that I wished to see. It was a good end to the series, and the Happily Ever After is definitely what I needed right now. Oddly, I didn’t mind the audio either, read by Brittany Pressley, despite usually avoiding YA audios. Some of the crying-while-speaking was overdone, but otherwise, I liked how she kept all the different voices straight in a book that contained many, many characters.

Random notes:
– I’m very glad I waited until the entire series was out before I began reading. Back-to-back was definitely the way to go. Wish I could’ve gotten that last one quicker.
– I wish I could see a little bit more from Maxon’s side during the actual selection, particularly in being raised not just to choose from a pool of women, but to think it’s “normal” to seriously date many women at one time. As I said before, Eadlyn’s story showed this a bit.
– To be honest, I’m not sure I’ll remember much about this series beyond it being the princess dystopia series…

Posted in 2016, Prose, Young Adult | Tagged , | 6 Comments