African Sojourn, by Uwe Ommer

african sojournI read this book as a companion to my Enchantment: Senegal book. It’s a book that is supposed to highlight the beauty of the female African body. West African, specifically (but not just Senegal). Unlike Native, the photography book that I read last month in my Brazil studies, this book didn’t feel beautiful or striking at all. It felt cheap. The pictures felt horribly stereotypical (because African women hunt naked with a rudimentary bow and arrow, right?) and on top of that, they were more p*rnographic than beautiful. There were actually pages torn out by former patrons who checked this out of the library, which is really disturbing to me. I generally like nude art, but I found this book to be in poor taste. Maybe it was just the time period – it was published in the mid-80s and feels very dated – but I didn’t like it at all.

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Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist, by Rachel Cohn and David Levithan

imagesIn a panic after seeing his ex, Nick turns to the stranger beside him at a bar and asks her to be his girlfriend for the next five minutes. Though her immediate instinct is to say no, Norah decides this might help her find a ride for her drunk best friend. She pulls Nick into a kiss.

After reading and not really liking Naomi & Ely’s No Kiss List by this same duet of authors, I was a little worried about Nick & Norah. I went into it with a bit of trepidation. That trepidation disappeared almost immediately. This is one of those books that I just want to say, “ZOMG this book is so good wow read it now.” I’m guessing that’s not really a good review, though.

What can I say about this? It was raw, it was real, it captured all the emotions and language perfectly. This is one of those books that I want to hold up and say, “See? This is what tension feels like! This is how to write a good kiss and/or sex scene! This is how to accurately portray teenagers! This is the way to make a setting feel real!” Everything was splendid.

I think that in the past I’ve given off this impression that I’m a prude. I say things that make it seem as if I dislike books with sex, crass language, etc in them. This book should prove that that isn’t true. I’m not a prude. I don’t like books with pointless, gratuitous, or badly written sex scenes. I don’t like language (“bad” or not) that sounds awkward and out of place. When these things are done well and have a reason for being in a book, I don’t mind them at all. They have to make sense and not be a ploy for sales technique. The author has to be honest with the reader, the subject, and themselves. Cohn and Levithan do this perfectly.

There was really only one thing that bothered me in this book. Without this little thing, I’d consider the book to border on perfection. I don’t like the two chapters where Norah is trying to decide if Nick’s gay because he smells like cologne, uses cherry Chapstick, and knows the name of designer shoes. I auto-rebel against that. The whole debate she has with herself comes very late in the book which makes it pointless as well as offensive. I wish that had been edited out. But other than that one tiny thing, this is a great, great book. Read it!!!! 😀

But don’t read it if you’re bothered by language, sex, drag queens, or boys making out with other boys. You won’t like the book then. It’s full of this stuff. Every single negative review of this book that I’ve seen has been from people bothered by the very frequent use of the word “fuck” or by the lack of “morality” in these teens.

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The Metamorphosis (graphic novel), by Franz Kafka

MetamorphosisMy long-time readers know that I love Kafka. The Metamorphosis is probably my all-time favorite novella. After loving the brilliant adaptation of The Trial to graphic novel last fall, I knew I had to get my hands on this GN adaptation. Of course, the artist was different and the way he approached the story was very different from the artist of The Trial. I preferred The Trial, but that doesn’t mean this one was bad. Kafka and his surrealism really lends itself well to the graphic form.

For those unfamiliar with The Metamorphosis (is there anyone??), the main character, Gregor Samsa, wakes up one morning to find himself strangely transformed into a giant insect. The book is complex and full of symbolism. It’s one I can read over and over again, and have. Each time I get something new out of it. This GN does a great job pulling all the important parts of the story to visual form, as well as weaving in symbolic imagery. My favorite was from the very last page: a shot of a Gregor-like bug on a light pole as the train carrying Gregor’s family drives by. It’s those little details that make this book strong.

And a little sidenote: this GN is supposed to be drawn in the style of Winsor McCay, one of the first surrealist comic artists.

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Bayou (vol 1), by Jeremy Love

BayouI read this GN online. The main character is a little girl named Lee who lives in Charon, Mississippi back during segregation. She’s a black girl and has a white friend named Lily. When Lily goes missing in the bayou, Lee’s father is accused of killing her. Lee is determined to find Lily and save her father.

I really wanted to like this book. The art is gorgeous and the premise is interesting. It’s not that I didn’t like it – I just don’t think I really understood it. It’s not a straightforward book. The premise seems that way, but then comes in all the fantastic elements. Dead people come back to life as butterfly-creatures or are cured of being run through with a pole by a sand mixture. There are swamp monsters and dog-sheriffs and men who can shape-shift. I know it’s all symbolism, I know, but I am not smart enough to understand all the symbolism. Honestly, I think I’d like this much better if I had a group of people to sit down and talk it out with. It would make a really good classroom book (though not too young, as it’s pretty violent/gruesome in places).

And in writing this review, I realized I actually read more than just the first volume of Bayou, which was my intention. Apparently the online version is the 4 chapters of Vol 1 + 3 chapters of Vol 2 (with more to be added later). No wonder the last chapter seemed a bit weird for an end…I was thinking it was just meant to be a cliffhanger. I suppose when the next chapter is put online, I’ll have to go look at it, since Vol 2 is not in print until this summer.

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Monique and the Mango Rains, by Kris Holloway

15597Kris Holloway was a Peace Corps volunteer in the West African nation of Mali in 1989-1991. Her host in the small town of Nampossela was Monique Dembele, the local midwife and health worker. This book chronicles their experiences over those two years, and also addresses many issues that women face in that part of the world.

This was an incredible book. It starts with some of Kris’s first experiences. She is re-named Fatumata while she’s in Mali (so that she can have a name in the local language of Miniaka) and she suffers all the culture shock and language barriers that one would expect. Her village is tiny. Most people live in little huts made of mud bricks with straw roofs. There is no electricity, no running water, no sewage system, no toilet paper, etc. There are vipers, cobras, wild dogs, 7-inch long scorpions, mosquitoes, and deadly diseases all over the place. The health clinic and birthing center are small, crumbling buildings, and Monique has only the bare essentials to work with. Her medical training consists of only nine months at a training school. In this community, half the children die before they reach age five, from malnutrition, diarrhea, or other causes like tetanus.

Because my brain is not significantly together right now to write a coherent review, I’m just going to separate this into sections of main issues touched on in Monique and the Mango Rains.

Education:

One of my favorite stories in the book was when Kris and her future husband (who was a water specialist volunteer in Nampossela) invited Monique to come visit them in the US six months after they left Mali. Monique wanted to go, but she was scared. She didn’t think she could hold on to the airplane for ten hours, that high up in the air. It was a very cute story, and once Monique realized you rode inside the plane instead of on it like a motorcycle, she was all for visiting (and did get to). The reason I bring it up, though, is because Monique was one of the most educated people in the village. She came from a nearby city that was larger and had a little more advantages. She went to school. She even went to medical training. But at the same time, her education was very rudimentary. She was very lucky to have what she had.

Education at the time was not even thought of in Nampossela. There were no schools; there were no thoughts of school. Kris returned to Mali eight years after her assignment was complete and by that time, the village had progressed to have a tiny school with two teachers. Education is so important, and yet so few people had it. The village chief couldn’t read. The only man who could was the village clerk, and because he had this advantage, he spent years cheating Monique out of much of her salary. It costs about $100 (US) to send a child to school for a year in Mali. So little and yet so few children are educated, keeping them trapped in poverty and ignorance.

Religion and Death:

The villagers were surrounded by death. Death of babies and children, death of sick people, death that comes with drought or too much rain, death of the few people lucky enough to reach old age. Death is treated so much differently when people are surrounded by it. There are celebrations when an elderly person dies, with dancing and feasting. It is a wonderful thing that that person lived to such an old age. There is no sadness here. Other deaths bring on sadness or simply resignation. People accept death as the will of God or Allah or traditional gods (Nampossela was a pretty strong mix of three different religions).

Religion is also so different there than here. I’ve literally spent years wondering how people could believe in an Old Testament version of God: fickle, jealous, petty, judgmental, selfish. He plays favorites and requires gifts and tokens to be appeased. He can turn on a person at the slightest provocation, or at no provocation at all. I understand a New Testament God. I don’t believe in it, but it makes sense with our culture. Reading about this tiny Malian village that depends on forces completely out of their hands just to survive, I can understand better about the older version of God.

For example, in San Antonio where I live, from August ’07 to August ’09, it didn’t rain. We went through severe drought that led to excruciating heat. So what did we do? We stayed indoors and used our a/c. We still clean had running water. People complained because they were only allowed to water their lawns once every two weeks. They cheated on the water restrictions to keep a green lawn. A few people died of heatstroke and heat-related illnesses, but no one starved to death because there was no rain to plant and harvest crops for two years. Our water supply didn’t dry up to the point where there was no water at all for drinking.

Drought in Mali means death. Great, sweeping waves of death. There is no irrigation. There is no reliance on other parts of the country to provide food or water. There is no government subsidies for farmers. There is nothing but death. They pray, they sacrifice animals, they try to stay in God’s favor so that he will send the rains that their lives depend on. When life depends on forces outside your control, forces that are sometimes benevolent and sometimes oppressive, it is easy to see where the idea of an Old Testament God comes from.

Women’s Issues:

I save this one for last because there was so much discussion on it. There would be, considering these are two years spent with a midwife. I read about so many different types of birth and the different things Monique could do to try to ensure survival of the mother and infant. Not that she always succeeded. There is a very high maternal death rate in Mali and it’s higher in the villages than in the cities where there is at least some emergency service. Women in Nampossela had their babies squatting on a concrete slab. Their midwife kept away infections by washing her hands – she had no gloves. No pain medication, nothing to cut with to help the baby out, just a plain sewing needle (again without pain medication) to repair tearing. There is no running water, and they do what they can to make what they have clean water. The danger is enormous.

But it’s not just birth that this book focuses on. There are many women’s issues discussed. I mentioned above that Monique’s salary was being partially kept by the clerk who dispensed it. Most of the rest of it was kept by Monique’s father-in-law. Monique received almost nothing to support her family, because she was a woman. Despite the fact that she did the job, she earned nothing for it. (I’m pleased to say Kris fixed this issue by the end of her two years.) But society was in all ways completely unfair for the women. Their husbands and fathers-in-law dictated everything they did. The men ate first and had the best of the food. The men got to keep the children in the case of divorce, automatically. There is no protection against domestic violence (Monique was surprised to hear domestic violence occurred in the US too). Marriages are for the most part arranged. Men make decisions on everything from when/where women can travel to sexual relations to birth control. Women have absolutely no power – not even women like Monique who was an educated, respected working mother.

That’s not to say every marriage was bad, or that no good relationships exist here. Neither an arranged marriage nor a marriage of love was protection against bad relationships. Monique’s arranged marriage was a bad one and she longed to be with the person she loved, who was also in an arranged marriage and who loved her back. On the other hand, a friend of Monique named Korotun disregarded her family and married out of love only to have her husband beat up on her, starve her, accuse her of cheating on him, and disown her child when it turns out to be a girl. These problems are not infrequent.

And then there’s the subject of female genital mutilation. Monique, a midwife and health worker, an educated woman, did not realize until Kris told her that excision was unnecessary and dangerous on a girl. Monique thought that it was a necessary, life-saving procedure to remove unnecessary and dangerous parts from a female. She thought everyone in the world had the procedure done as a child and was surprised to hear that it didn’t happen in the US. She didn’t believe it at first and thought Kris had simply repressed the memory.

You know, years ago, I used to get mad when our country interfered with other cultures. I didn’t like genital mutilation, but I really resented the white habit of pushing our “better” culture on other people. Hearing that even health workers think this is a necessary thing, that this is less culture-related and more due to ignorance, made me change my mind completely about the issue. It’s not that I ever approved of what those cultures did – seriously genital mutilation is horrible – but to keep it going out of ignorance rather than culture/custom/ritual is a whole different beast. And of course excision becomes even more dangerous for women when it comes time to have children. Like Monique says, “I have noticed myself, that it does not help the baby pass through. As a midwife, I have certainly noticed this.

Okay, I could go on and on but I think I’ve beaten this review to death already. This is a wonderful book that’s easy to read and definitely helped me see the world with new eyes.

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Virginia Woolf: A Biography, by Quentin Bell

43677I have long found Virginia Woolf a fascinating woman. After reading A Room of One’s Own last year, which had a brief introduction to her life, I decided I wanted to read a biography of her. This is a big step for me because I don’t believe I have ever enjoyed a biography in my life. I prefer memoirs – less dry and boring for me. But Woolf didn’t write a memoir, and I wanted to know about her life enough to pick up a biography.

I chose Quentin Bell’s biography because of his personal connection to Woolf. He was her nephew. Others have said that a more recent version is good, but Bell’s is the only one I considered. I’m glad I chose it because I not only learned a lot about Woolf, but I learned a lot about Quentin Bell and I would have really liked to get to know him.

What I was most afraid of in this 1973 book was that it would skate over Woolf’s sexuality or take a moral stance against her. At best, I thought it would talk about her affairs with both men and women with a firm indifference. However, it wasn’t anything like this. Bell was straightforward and the exact opposite of moralizing. It was relieving and it made me so happy!

First, let me say what Volume 1 of this work deals with (I only read Volume 1 for the purposes of this review). It talks about Woolf’s family history on both her mother and father’s side, then talks about her childhood and her early adulthood up until she accepted Leonard Woolf’s marriage proposal in 1912. Volume 2, which I haven’t yet read, explores her life from this point until her death in 1941. Originally, I’d planned to read both volumes before writing this review, but after spending nearly three weeks reading Volume 1, I decided to set Volume 2 aside for several months. As I’ve said, biography is not my favorite genre by far and even though I really enjoyed this book and I loved Quentin Bell and his writing, I still can’t read this sort of history for a long time. I will enjoy it more split into two readings.

Bell does a marvelous job here. He had access to a bunch of letters and diaries that were in Leonard Woolf’s possession until his death in 1969. Bell also had Leonard Woolf’s permission to write this and to use all the information within, which I think is important. But what I loved most was Bell’s personal connection to Virginia. When he spoke about how her half-brother George molested her as a child and a young adult, there is tiny trace of anger behind it even though he tries to stay neutral and unbiased. His dislike of his uncle George is apparent every time he’s mentioned. Bell also does not skirt any of the sexual issues that occurred in the Bloomsbury group, to which Virginia and her sister Vanessa both belonged. He makes no excuses, nor does he moralize against them. His underlying philosophy comes out in favor of feminism as he talks about the anti-women customs of the late 1800s and early 1900s. He is, in short, exactly as I’d want him to be.

Yes, reading this I feel like I was learning as much about Bell as Woolf, simply because that’s what I was looking at. Maybe that’s why I tend to find biographies boring – because I pay so much more attention to the writer than their subject. But I did learn a lot about Woolf as well, plus a lot about the culture she grew up in. For example, I had no idea that there was a law in Britain at one point that if a man’s wife died, it was illegal for him to marry her sister. Because of that law, Vanessa did not marry her half-sister Stella’s husband after Stella died mere months after her marriage.

Honestly, I don’t want to just list out facts I learned about Woolf’s life. That would make this review more boring than it already is. I just want to say I really enjoyed reading this and I think it was a very thorough look at the first part of Virginia’s life. I loved all the personal connections Bell had to the family and his writing is very easy to follow. I loved that he stated frankly when Virginia fell in love with certain women. I loved that he included Leonard Woolf’s love letters to Virginia because they are beautiful and passionate. I loved learning more about Virginia’s personality because she reminds me a lot of myself in many ways.

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Native Son, by Richard Wright

native-sonBigger Thomas is a twenty-year-old black hoodlum from South Side Chicago in the 1930s. When his petty criminal acts spill over into accidental killing, then to rape and murder, the whole city erupts into chaos in their hatred against him.

This book really confused me. I’ll say first off that it’s a fast, powerful book that is very well-written. Once I picked it up, I didn’t want to put it down. Though I had obligations outside my house and was gone for hours each day, I still managed to read this 500+ page book in 3 days. Even when I didn’t like it very much, I wanted to keep reading. It was like watching a trainwreck. I couldn’t put it down.

I say “even when I didn’t like it very much.” Really, I was just confused, and maybe the best way to go about this review is to take you though my thought processes. The first 100 or so pages of the book follow Bigger closely as he engages in violent, bullying behavior like terrifying his sister with a dead rat and forcing a friend to lick a knife on threat of slitting open the guy’s throat. He’s a nasty horrible human being and I can’t sympathize with him one bit, though I tried. During this section, I thought maybe Wright was trying to say that Bigger acted this way because of his poverty and the oppression of black people. But then the next 150 pages follows Bigger as his petty crimes turn into murder, ransoming, and later rape and more murder. By that point, there was no way I could look at Bigger with any sympathy at all. He was disgusting human trash.

That was what confused me. Having read those 250 pages, all I could think was that Wright was showing that black people were horrible human beings. That made no sense, and the idea really made me angry. If that first half of the book had been written by a white person, I’d think it was racist. And I know that Wright is not racist against black people. I know this is supposed to be a seminal work about race relations and oppression. I was so, so confused. I couldn’t believe that Wright wanted us to feel any pity for Bigger – he’d written Bigger in a way that it was impossible to sympathize with him – but if I couldn’t pity Bigger, what was the point of the book? So I just kept reading.

Soon, though, I thought I started to see where this was going as the cops hunt Bigger down. As Chicago erupted into riots, lynching black people, illegally searching their houses, firing black employees as a “precaution,” writing newspaper articles about how they’re just “black apes” and ought to be segregated and kept uneducated for “their own happiness.” I thought maybe this book isn’t about Bigger. Bigger was a nasty horrible piece of human trash – but there are nasty horrible pieces of human trash in every race. Maybe this wasn’t about Bigger and his crimes, but about the way people reacted to them. It was contrast, because originally they thought this murder had been committed by a white communist (they hated communists almost as much as they hated black people) and yet there had been no riots or people lynching or firing communists around the city. There had been reaction, oh yes, but it was controlled.

I started to see. Or I thought I did, anyway. But then the book turned again at the trial. Native Son fell victim to the popular early-to-mid-1900s style of presenting a long philosophical text in the latter half of the book (think 1984 and the book Winston reads word for word). Bigger’s lawyer gives a 30-page long speech. Oh my goodness. I hate, hate, hate that, by the way. Just saying. Authors need to get off their soapbox a little bit. I had to do some skimming there. I did read enough of the speech to realize that Wright did want us to feel sorry for Bigger, though. He wanted us to think that these crimes were somehow the product of Bigger’s environment growing up, that his environment excused him of all crimes, and I fundamentally disagree with that. I agree that the double standard of how people treated him in their reaction to this crime was disgusting beyond words. I read the newspaper articles that were quoted and just boiled with anger and indignation against stupid white oppressors. But even peoples’ reactions DO NOT EXCUSE the horrible things that Bigger did.

People around Bigger tried. His mother and siblings tried their best. They lived in horrible conditions that no human being should have to live in, but they did their best to try to be loving and good. Bigger didn’t learn his violence from his family. The white people that hired him to work for them were naive, but they were trying their best to improve conditions for black Americans. They donated millions to schools. They hired people who were poor or juvenile delinquents, trying to give them a chance to change their lives. They paid him extra money for his job. They tried to encourage him to go to school and get an education, to better his life. They weren’t mean people. Naive and accidentally condescending, oh yes, but they tried the best they knew how. Their daughter, Mary, was even more naive. She wanted to be Bigger’s friend. She wanted to learn “how Negroes lived.” She treated him as if he were an interesting pet. She was dumb, but she was not purposely mean. And then there were people who were honest. White people. Jan and Max both treated Bigger as a human being and an equal. They did everything they could for him.

Bigger Thomas had a chance to be a better person. His crimes were inexcusable. I feel no pity for him at all, despite what Wright wants me to feel. But what the majority of white people did to him – and to other blacks – was no better. Worse in fact. And I think that’s what I have to take from this in the end. I have to say sorry, I hate Bigger Thomas, but while he ought to have been punished for his crimes, the reaction of people around him was disproportionate to those crimes. I know that had he been white, he would have been punished, but it would not have been the same. Not at all. To me, that’s what this book is about: inequality of justice.

I hope we have improved in the seventy years since this book was published. I imagine we have some, but I’m sure we have not gotten as far as we should. There are still people out there who are racist and oppressive. Discrimination – and not just against blacks – still exists all over our country. If we really want equality, perhaps we ought to listen to what Max says in the middle of his 30-page speech:

Men are men and life is life, and we must deal with them as they are; and if we want to change them, we must deal with them in the form in which they exist and have their being.

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Catcher in the Rye, by JD Salinger

200px-Rye_catcherI first read Catcher in the Rye in 2001 when I was 22 years old. That year, I read a book every week and 95% of them were classics (that’s what I had access to). Because I read so many of them and because I had an infant son at the time, there are some books that I simply don’t remember. I wasn’t blogging or writing down my notes in any way. Catcher in the Rye is one of those books that fell victim to not sticking in my memory. I’ve known for awhile that I needed to reread it, and the recent Catcher in the Rye Readalong gave me the push to do it sooner than later.

So what’s the book about? Nothing, plot-wise. Don’t look for a plot in this book. Catcher is all about Holden Caulfield, a depressed, “angsty” teenage boy who can’t get himself to make an effort to do anything. He floats alone without any motivation and winds up wherever that takes him.

In some ways, I can understand Holden’s point of view. To him, the world seems pointless and meaningless. Sort of a younger version of Camus’ The Stranger, actually. I know what he means. I personally hate social conventions that require you to behave in certain ways. I’ve hated that since I was old enough to recognize it. Most people grow out of that rebellion against the status quo, but I guess I haven’t. I understand why those customs are necessary now, but I still go against the norm. Holden sees all this pointlessness around him and doesn’t understand it, nor does he want to. It repulses him. But he also doesn’t want to change it. He just…floats.

Honestly, the book made very little impression on me. I ended up skimming big long passages because I was bored and wanted it over quickly and I imagine I did the same thing 9 years ago. I didn’t get anything out of this read and in a few years, I probably won’t remember the book any more than I remember it from my 2001 reading. It apparently slipped my memory really bad because I didn’t even recognize parts of the book when rereading. Normally with a book I’ve mostly forgotten, I’ll at least recognize bits, but in this? Nothing.

Would I have liked it more as a teenager? Maybe, but I don’t think so. I preferred a slightly more absurd/surreal viewpoint on this subject (hence my love of The Stranger), or a more emotional version. This was halfway between and I think that’s why it doesn’t stick in my brain.

Note: Review date is only an approximate of when this book was read/reviewed in 2010.

Note: Originally read in 2001.

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Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, by JK Rowling

harry-potter-and-the-chamber-of-secretsIt’s time for my hardback/paperback comparison of the second book in the Harry Potter series. This will be quick. Just like with the first book, there were no differences between the two versions. I kind of wonder when the differences will start showing up. I know for sure they are there in book 5, and I’m pretty sure I’ve heard of one in/from book 4. But even though I didn’t find any differences, these are comfort read books for me and it was nice to take an afternoon to reread this for the twenty-something-th time.

Unfortunately, I didn’t have the British version of this book so I can’t do a comparison that way like I did with book 1. However, I did notice a consistency error this time that I’ve never seen before. In chapter 8, The Deathday Party, Hermione tells the others that Moaning Myrtle haunts a bathroom on the 1st floor. A little later that chapter, they run from the basement level up three flights of stairs, then run “the whole of the second floor,” ending up at Myrtle’s bathroom. Those two little references are only pages apart. I checked both HB & PB copies and they both are incorrect/inconsistent.

Yes, I’m a dork for picking out little things like this. And yet, I feel dumb for not seeing this before. How many times have I read this? I guess I can only excuse myself because this is one of my least favorite Harry Potter books (the only one worse is The Goblet of Fire) and I tend to skim through it quickly when I read the whole series. I paid more attention this time.

I’ll be back next month with The Prisoner of Azkaban, one of my two favorite books in the series! Hopefully I will have something more to say.

Note: Review date is only an approximate of when this book was read/reviewed in 2010.

Note: Originally read in 2005 and many times since.

***
November 2014 throwback review

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Apologies to an Apple, by Maya Ganesan

6240261This is my first book of poetry in the six I am trying to read in 2010. It’s a short slip of a book but I still spread it out over a few weeks, simply because I know next to nothing about poetry and have a difficult time reading it. For all my troubles, though, Apologies to an Apple was remarkably easy to understand. It’s not that the poetry was that much more simple than other poetry I’ve read in the past, but it was clear and relatable. I think that’s what made the difference for me.

The book is split into three parts, though to be honest I’m not sure for what reason each section is grouped together. I repeat: I am really horrible when it comes to anything to do with poetry. I’m sure there is some theme or rhythm or other element that ties each section together, but whatever it is went completely over my head. I just read for the poems themselves. I preferred Part 1 and the second half of Part 2 to the rest of the book.

I marked 7 poems that I really, really enjoyed. Obviously I can’t put them all here, but I want to give an example of Ganesan’s poetry, so I’m picking out my favorite three to discuss.

Merge

We become each other’s silhouette,
fire, and at-my-fingertips shadow.

We merge, and each of our hearts lifts
that of the other like puppeteers’
strings pulling slowly upwards, upwards.

I don’t know that I fully grasp everything she’s saying here, honestly. It borders on not-so-simple, and my brain can’t take not-so-simple poetry. But I like the feeling, this becoming one in order to fly together, or flying together because you have become one.

The Art of Knowing

no one knows you are coming and going underneath
this big sky and drinking a hundred vowels each

minute, drinking and spitting

you are walking underneath the awning of a petite
French-style cafe and someone five miles away

doesn’t know

This one is far more comprehensible to me and it is something I’ve felt so many times in my life, that my life – that anyone’s life – is entirely pointless outside their surroundings. We are all so small and insignificant. It’s a very humbling feeling, as well as a terrifying one, and she captures it perfectly.

No Way Out

I am trapped in a
whirlwind of crossroads

that I know nothing about,
let alone how to

find my way
out of the maze.

Every turn opens up
a new alleyway of

more roads to follow.
More roads

so I can wonder about
which one

leads to the way out.

Another feeling I can relate to so much. This is probably my favorite poem of the bunch. I think all of us who have grown up can relate to this feeling – that there are so many choices and so many things we can do, that it is hard to figure out what we should do. Like the fig tree in The Bell Jar. It’s a frightening crossroads.

Maya Ganesan’s understanding of the world is magnificent. She observes things around her in a way that reminds me of my own childhood (she turned 11 the week she put the finishing touches on this book). Though I wrote stories and was never any good at poetry, I understand what it is like to pick up little touches of the world around me and have to go write them down. This is her first book, and I am interested to see where she goes from here.

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