Bitter Waters, by Vivian Shaw (audio)

This is a novella-sized addition (3.5) to the Greta Helsing series. I’ve read the first three, with the fourth coming out later this year. Honestly, it’s been long enough since the third (2019) that I barely remember the previous installments. However, it wasn’t difficult to get into this one.

The story begins with the sudden vampire attack of a ten year old girl. Lucy now has to deal with becoming a vampire at a very young age, while various (undead and human) adults around her investigate and take care of the situation. It was a nice little story that did a good job reintroducing all the players for me. I’m not sure if I’ll read on in the series, simply because I have so much else on my TBR, but I’m more inclined now than before.

Performance: Audiobook was read by Catrin Walker-Booth. This isn’t the same narrator as the previous installments but it has been long enough that the difference didn’t matter to me. She did a good job.

PS – I am sooooo out of practice writing reviews, ha!

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Fanfic minis – March 2025

A bit of a short one this month. Most of what I’m currently reading is in-progress and didn’t finish in March. Plus, I’ve been trying to focus more on other priorities.

First: One Night in Bangor by Atalan. A bet in Hell leads to an interesting game during the once-in-a-millennia Heaven-and-Hell joint office party. This one was silly, tender, sweet, sexy, and everything I could have hoped it to be. Given it was written by the author of one of my fave fics of last year, I’m not surprised!

Second: The Rose and the Serpent by Atalan. This is a beauty and the beast retelling that literally had me crying in places (and I’m not a cryer at books or movies!!). This author is quickly becoming one of my favorites ever. They write so, so, so beautifully.

Third: Married at First Sight by Aracloptia. This is exactly what it sounds like – a Good Omens fanfic based on the reality TV show. Enemies to lovers, heavy miscommunication. This is actually a reread for me. I participate in a GO fic club on discord and this was the story for the month. It was quite nice as a reread, knowing secrets that I didn’t know the first time through, and it was just as emotional. I liked it even better on reread.

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Tattoo Tour: Dead Cute (5)

When I closed The Zen Leaf in 2023, I had four tattoos. There were the original two I got back in 2013/2014, the second of which was such a bad experience that it took me nine years to try again. Then in June 2023, I got a larger back tattoo done with frames for eventual cat portraits. And I got a silly one on my calf that was a Three of Swords mixed with a Vday conversation heart.

Since then, I’ve gotten a LOT more tattoos. I mentioned on my hello post when I restarted this blog in January that I was up to 15. Well, I’m now up to 18…and I figured it was time to do a tattoo tour. But only one tattoo at a time because then I can write little posts, which is just about what I’m mentally prepared for these days. Heh.

Tattoo No.5 was a little flash tattoo for Friday the 13th in October 2023. One of the tattoo shops I go to was having a sale – tattoos were $13, which was insane. I had wanted to try a specific artist there, Keith, because I want him to do one of my cat portraits and I wanted to get a feel for how he tattoos. His flash included these little conversation hearts, which I thought would be perfect for my calf. I decided this would be my spoopy leg, for all the silly spooky tattoos.

Keith did a good job though I learned a thing that I would mostly continue learning as I went along on this tattoo journey – male tattoo artists tend to go deeper into my skin than female artists, causing both more pain and less-clean lines. Within a month or two, the hearts looked older than the big heart. I was told by other artists that the smaller tattoo will look better in time…but it’s now been 1.5 years, and the smaller one still looks older and muddier than the big one.

Not that Dead Cute tattoo looks bad or blown out! It looks fine, I just prefer a lighter hand with tattoos, and my skin prefers it too. (Also, I always read this as “dead but cute” rather than “dead cute,” so do with that what you will.)

Okay! I’ll be back another time with Tattoo no.6, which I got on my Mediterranean cruise in October 2023!

 

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Fanfic minis – Feb 2025

Time for another good omens fanfic roundup! Feb was a huge month for fics, in part because several stories that I’ve been reading for ages have now wrapped up.

First: in the house we remain by commodorecliche. This is a love story between a man and a ghost, spanning decades before the two can be together on the same plane of existence. The author did a phenomenal job of translating the 6k+ years of pining between Aziraphale and Crowley into a human-centric span of loneliness. One of my favorites of the year so far.

Second: Exactly Like We Were by demonsandpieohmy. College reunion, former not-friends take a liking to each other. Shenanigans ensue. Cute story.

Third: All the Pieces of You by Create_Serenity. A through-the-ages fic where morality, companionship, and loneliness are explored through human appetites. Now a series that I’m looking forward to reading as it releases.

Fourth: You’re the Bad Guys by Nebz_AlphaCentauri. Cold War fic from 1981, British vs USSR intelligence agencies. The author of this one did so much research and her writing is meticulous! Absolutely incredible story, one of my favorites of the year (and last year, for that matter – been reading this for a while!), and I’m not generally a historical fiction person!

Fifth: Richfront Valley by CaptainBlou. A story of trauma and internalized homophobia, of cheating and divorce. Apparently this was originally a PWP fic that developed a much deeper plot. I enjoyed about 75% of it, though sometimes the PWP parts were a bit not-for-me.

Sixth: Stray Souls by Raxacoricofallapatoriusrulez. Cat omens!! Az and Crowley are cats, one a pampered pet, one a stray. They form a bond that then is tested when they end up in a shelter. Absolutely heartbreaking in places, and very sweet in others.

Seventh: Among the Stacks by MeinirRhos. This was a fascinating story of single-sided memory loss. What do you do if you have a shared history with someone – a shared history that would be literally unbelievable to a normal person because it involves angels and demons – and you are growing close to that person in their new incarnation? It reminds me of a story I read last year that was the other way around, dealing with reincarnation and memory loss, rather than just memory loss. That was one of my favorites of 2024. This one definitely has potential to become a favorite.

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Fanfic minis – Jan 2025

Ello, ‘ello! I thought I’d do a monthly mini-review type thing for the fanfic that I read each month, since I’m trying to get back into the habit of book reviews. I know a lot of people don’t think of fanfic as actual books, but FUCK THAT. A year and a half ago, I had the same biases, and I now regret that I didn’t find this avenue of storytelling years ago. So skip if you want – this will just be my little monthly fic-roundup. And yeah, I know February is almost over, so it’s late for January reviews, but I don’t care all that much. 🤷

I finished two fanfics in January. (“Finished” is a very relative term. Some months will have tons of books listed because my in-progress fics will all finish together and I’ll have been reading them for a year as they release chapters slowly. Some will only have complete fics that I read that particular month.) I’m not including any fics that are under 10k, because these posts would be outrageously long if I did. Note that at this point, all the fanfics I read are related to Good Omens, mostly starring Aziraphale and Crowley as the primary romantic pairing.

First up, we have my first finished story of 2025, Ever-Fixed by HKBlack. This little novella addresses trans issues and the ideas of heavily consent-based intimacy, as well as clear communication in the most minute ways. It was actually quite beautiful. My personal experience with GO fanfic is that trans fics often devolve into a description of straight sex/romance trussed up under the guise of queer issues. This was NOT that. This really seemed to address the realities of trans issues in a body where some surgeries have been performed, others not, and physical/social transition are in a different space. It was beautifully and sensitively written and a great way to start the year.

The other fic I read in January was Dark Literature by UnproblematicMe. This was a fun haunted-building story that played on office politics, ancient curses, broken promises, and the desperation of people in love. It was quite spooky in places. I did struggle a bit with keeping all the different ghosts separate, but I think that was more my headspace (and the gaps between when I could/couldn’t read).

Aaaaand that’s all for January!

[Photo: my partner’s hands, taken by me in February 2025]

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whoops…

Hmm, so there’s this thing where I said hello, then never wrote again… I do have reasons! First, it was because WordPress went crazy for a bit and tried to take away the old editor from me, and I despise the new editor so much that I decided that not to post despite my hello. Then the old editor came back on it’s own. *shrug* Then, the only tradpub book I’ve read this year was Wind and Truth by Brandon Sanderson, which took two months to listen to because it was something like 62 hours long. By the time I finished listening to it, it was almost time for my first trip of the year. February, so far, has been prep for the trip, then the trip, then recovering from jet lag after returning to Texas. I meant to post about Wind and Truth, about the fanfics I read in January, maybe a bit about this trip…

Well. Eventually. I’ll have to get back into the swing of things, review-wise. Wind and Truth probably wasn’t the best one to start with considering its size and complexity, not to mention that it is the fifth book in a series.

I am still here though, and planning to post in a very sporadic kind of way. I’ve been quite busy feeling very happy (though pining) for my lovely Rainstorm (by which name they will be known) in Europe. We spend hours chatting every day, and much of my free time and energy goes into that. We just celebrated three months together while I was with them in Europe, though we’ve been fast friends for a year now. Met through fanfic and were friends and beta-partners long before we began dating. It’s a very different way than I’ve done things in the past, but so much better, so much healthier, so much happier!

(Yeah, no face pics of them, just like no name – gotta keep the real life stuff away from the fanfic stuff for job purposes!) (And yes, those are complementary tattoos that we got while I was with them. We’d been planning it for almost half a year, long before dating, as a nod to our fandom and our beta-partnership. Now, it’s something more.)

So yeah, I’ll get back into the swing of things eventually. I’m enjoying life too much to worry right now about schedules and shoulds.

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Goals 2025

**Note: I’m doing some blog maintenance. This is a backdated post (I don’t know if it’ll go into anyone’s feed readers – you can ignore it if so!). I’ve moved my goals info from my primary Goals Page to this post so I have the results of my 2025 stuff recorded somewhere. Below is copy/pasted directly from my Goals Page on 12/31/25.

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Happy New Year!

Hello! What am I doing here, you ask? Well, I was going through the end of 2024, looking over everything, and I got annoyed because I couldn’t remember most of the books I’d read this year or the latter part of 2023. I’ve had a book blog to track my books for so many years that I’ve come to rely on having my thoughts down on those things. (And I don’t leave reviews/thoughts on StoryGraph.)

Life has changed so much in the last 1.5 years. I’ve traveled tons, exploring so many new locations and countries that I’ve never been to, making so many friends. I’ve returned to writing, and have written six full-length novels and half of two others, plus several short stories. It’s all fanfiction in the Good Omens fandom, which (despite my initial biases about fanfic) has made me a much better writer, and has expanded my world exponentially. I’ve made friends from around the world, several I’ve met in person now and many others I plan to in the next year. I was able to process a lot of the trauma from my 2014-2015 year in Boston, channeling it into one of these novels and letting go of a lot of weight from my shoulders. J and I have officially chosen to make our marriage completely platonic and join the poly/ENM community, and I am now dating another nonbinary person who I met through the GO fandom. I’ve embraced my nonbinary gender a lot more fully, including transitioning to they/them pronouns and choosing my own name, Thistle. I’ve also come to realize that I’ve never been bi/pan but far more lesbian/sapphic, and so add another type of rainbow flag to my collection (ha!). I’m more colorful in general, with my tattoos numbering 15 now when it was only 4 when I last posted!

Health-wise, I was doing really well until 2024. This last year, I had a really rough year with a (new) shitty insurance company that denied necessary medication for most of the year (until about three hours after the United CEO shooting, ironically…). The denied medication meant that my health really suffered a myriad of consequences, and I lost a lot of ground that I’d gained in mobility in late 2022/through 2023. Since the shooting, though, all requests have been approved (go figure…), and I hope that continues. I’d like to be able to walk and stretch without pain again! And despite the complications in health, I actually feel better about my body generally than I have for over a decade. Being part of a community (poly/kink) that is body neutral as well as having a companion who desires me has helped me to shed a lot of negative body image hangups that I’ve felt for a long time.

I’m so much happier these days. My long term goal is to move to the UK, which I hope will happen in the next 1.5 years. I’m still fostering kittens, still reading (though much of it is fanfiction rather than tradpub books), and I still do a bit of photography, though most of my creative energy goes toward writing these days. I’m not sure how much I plan to post here. Maybe eventually I’ll write in more detail about the last 1.5 years, as a record for myself and anyone who wants to follow along, though I haven’t had many regular readers for years. (Turns out, that doesn’t matter to me as much as having a record!) Mostly, I plan to write small posts about books, so that I have them in the future!

Happy new year to anyone who might find this, and I hope your 2025 will be lovely.

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End

My first official blog post was 15.5 years ago on 2/14/08. My first official post at this URL after some blog shuffling, when I was resurrecting The Zen Leaf, was nine years ago today, on 8/14/14. I’m still honestly not sure I won’t regret this decision later, but I entered a new phase of life a year ago. I’ve felt for quite some time that it’s time for me to fully commit to that new direction, and let some old parts of my life pass quietly into the past. Much of the last year, I’ve spent culling social media down, removing extraneous things that no longer bring joy or connection, and evaluating where I want to go next. So this will be my last post here.

The blog itself will stay up at least until next July, because I’ve paid for the URL that long. I’m also still on some social medias, where I talk about books and cats and photography and health and pretty much all the stuff I talk about here anyway. So if you haven’t already and would like to, here is where you can find me:

Instagram: @pookasluagh
Tiktok: @pookasluagh
Photography: Gossamer Studios

Thank you to all of you who kept reading and commenting and such over the years. Love you all.

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Callback: Good Omens

I am currently obsessed with Good Omens. Here’s the thing: I listened to the audiobook way back in 2010. It was one of the first audiobooks I’d ever tried, and I enjoyed it immensely, but I didn’t get obsessed. I also clearly missed a hell of a lot of subtext, and forgot lots of important details, because when the miniseries came out in 2019, I could’ve sworn that, while it was a good adaptation, there were a lot of embellishments and changes. It was a good show, and my whole family enjoyed it. Like many good shows, I watched it twice in a row. I meant to get around to rereading the book because it had been so long, yet never did. Then came season two.

I enjoyed the book. I liked the show a lot. But season two? That was something entirely new and different and it took over my brain completely. My tiktok fyp is filled with nothing but the ineffable husbands at this point, heh. I watched those six episodes, rewatched the sixth, rewatched the entire season twice more, rewatched the first season, went back to the last two episodes of season two again, and finally got around to rereading the book. I’m dreaming about it. I have the urge to write fanfiction, which I’ve never had the urge to do before. Actually, I’m excited about potentially starting to write something at all, for the first time in nearly a decade. I thought I’d forever lost this love and excitement about writing after the traumas of my year in Boston, but here I am. Maybe this is what I needed. Just a few more times watching through the show first, especially the second season. And pining for season three, which won’t be here for years. Sigh.

So when I say that I’m obsessed, I very strongly mean it. And that obsession finally got me to pick up the book again. It’s been 13 years since my last read, and while I was planning to listen to the original audiobook, I learned that there was a full cast version. Normally, I really dislike full cast audiobooks, but this one had Michael Sheen and David Tennant, and I couldn’t not listen to it.

Things I learned, on second read: The miniseries followed the book far more closely than I remembered. Yeah, there were some differences, but a lot of what I thought was made up or added or embellished was actually there in the book. Second, I either completely missed or purposely forgot about some of the really cringy language that marked the book as being published in 1990. (F-slurs and R-slurs and fatphobia and cultural stereotyping – many of which were presented to be just as horrid as they are, but some of which were just there, accepted and acceptable.) And weirdly, I didn’t remember much of the queer-baiting from the book (the slurs and descriptions, yes, but not the actual Azira-Crow undertext), probably because I was 31 and still trying to break free from of my very heteronormative upbringing. The book was both better and worse than I remembered, and honestly, at this point, I think I like the TV version better. I know that’s pretty blasphemous for a book person to say, but it’s true. The book suffers from some of the drawbacks of its time, like any media.

So now it’s time to go back to the show and obsess over micro-expressions and put together theories for the future and cry a little bit more over that ending. J and L are surely getting exhausted of me talking about Good Omens, but at least I know I’m not the only person obsessed out there. If that means my sister and friends and I are texting each other memes and TT vids and theories, so be it! And if you haven’t 1) read this book or 2) watched this show, both are highly recommended!

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